it's my life, and it's now or never....

Halloween party

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 14:36:29 GMT

wow what a fun time ;) (what i remember)

so close.......

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 20:04:01 GMT

inching ever so closer to a perfect life at erskine

perfect......almost

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 22:14:19 GMT

all i'm going to say, is that life here at erskine is just about perfect

wow :)

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 00:44:09 GMT

1. blond

2. incredibly gorgeous

3. kick-butt personality/sense of humor

4. super sweet

5. possibly interested in me!!!

wish me luck, and if something happens, what the **** did i do right?

greetings from the lovely town of due west

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 14:18:55 GMT

i hope everyone is enjoying college as much as i am, and i've only been here one day! we had the freshman soiree last night....

1)the girls gathered in the second floor lobby of Carnegie [the freshman girls' dorm]
2)the guys were brought over at six thirty
3)they came up one by one and drew your name out of a hat
4)the girl was escorted down the stairs to her date
5)walk outside with your date and get your picture taken
6)get driven over to Moffatt [dining hall] in kick-ass 1950s cars
7)eat dinner
8)socialize/get to know each other
9)dance

it was pretty fun! i was worried about who would draw my name, and when i heard my name called, my first thought was along the lines of "oh s---"....haha...but a really gorgeous soccer player drew my name ;)...his name's kyle...funny, hot, nice....

hah anyways last night (after the soiree was over), me and like six other girls were invited over to Grier (the freshman guys' dorm) to just chill for awhile, which was fun, then the guys turned around and walked us back to Carnegie....then i sat outside with one of them and talked for a couple of hours, which was fun, til i realized i probably needed sleep before the morning, so i ended up going back to my room at like 1:15, then to sleep at like 2:00...

oh well...another fun day ahead, i'll talk to y'all later! much <3

the time has come

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 22:13:43 GMT

well, the fateful day is tomorrow--i move into my dorm room at Erskine. i'm feeling so many emotions right now:

happy/excited : starting a new chapter of my life, asserting my independence, hopefully making a ton of new friends, and just overall enjoying the whole experience

sad : the people i'm leaving: my grandparents, my father, my incredible church family, the best friend i've ever had, and a person whose name i can't mention but i am most definitely thinking about

scared : more like nervousness about the upcoming transition--it's different when you're like "omg what colleges should i look at" to "choosing the school after getting accepted" to "graduation day" to "the fateful last summer" to "move-in day"

hyper : holy sh*t i'm sooooooo excited! i can't wait! it's tomorrow! and although i'm leaving greenville at like 7:30 am, I DON'T CARE! this experience will be so worth it!

okay enough of me being hyper.....i know i have a small closet and a limited amount of storage, but i still have an assload of stuff that i'm taking, clothes-wise, after it got weeded out by my sister and me last night, and i finally finished packing like twenty minutes ago.....and i'll be packing this thing up at some point today, so i want to go ahead and update before i do so and forget! I'll see all of my fellow Erskinites tomorrow!

love y'all

p.s. the one person that i wished would miss me said they'd miss me a lot....which makes me feel a whole lot better about the transition

p.p.s. although belated, this is for the Greenville High class of 2005 :

as we start our new lives, we look back upon our old ones and realize what an impact we have had upon the history of our school. we are everything that Greenville High is thought to be, and more. although we had to survive the best year of our high school career at parker, we made the best out of the situation, rose above it, and became the most incredible senior class to hit Greenville. we have the spirit, the strength, the determination, the hope, the faith, the intelligence, the agility, and the heart it takes to truly call ourselves Red Raiders. congratulations, and good luck in the future!

wow

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 03:07:29 GMT

thank God

for understanding fathers,

a kick-ass big sister,

and nice officers....

(IM me for clarification)

college is looming over us......

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 17:34:40 GMT

well, me anyways. i leave greenville in 20 days for Erskine, which is about an hour away, depending on how fast you drive {and just YESTERDAY, i learned how Due West got its name; it's due west of Ninety Six, which is ninety-six miles from Columbia....random, i know}...but anyways, yesterday was pre-orientation/parent orientation......i got my picture made for my ID, and you know how much i hate having my picture taken....then i got my schedule, which i'm relatively pleased with.....then i had to take my spanish placement test {fun crap, i tell ya!}....and oh yes, i got to look at my dorm room! my roommate wasn't at the pre-orientation, so i got to take the measurements myself haha....and when i turned in my money to loft my bed, i was asked which bed i wanted after replying that i didnt know what my roommate wanted to do to hers, so i guess that's good that i got to choose my bed? and i'll get to see where the refrigerator, microwave, and loveseat will go, seeing as how i'm bringing all of that {at least those three items were of no cost to me:)}....and i definitely didn't want to leave yesterday, i was so pumped about moving in.....

the most eventful part of the day, which i almost didn't make it to erskine but did thanks to sarah coming to the rescue, was my car shutting down on the way there.....but it's all good now i believe....so i should be getting it back soon!

have a wonderful day, and last few weeks of summer!

it's about time, man!

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 03:32:55 GMT

well, guess who's finally updating? yes, that would be the wonderful moi:-D...anyways, nothing has really been going on with me. i got back from a week-long mission trip in North Carolina friday (the 29th), and it was amazing. it saddened me to see the situations my work site had to improve/fix...painting {completely} a house, building steps/a deck, building a wheelchair ramp/deck for a partially blind man...on a lighter note, the youth group got closer, which impressed me despite me being the oldest youth by just over three years...there were many sad moments, like when i broke down to the youth minister due to all my stress recently, as well as many good memories, like finishing our set assignments and meeting new people (*wink wink*....y'all will have to ask me later ab that one)! and as of august 4th, which it almost is, it will be a sad twenty-three days until i leave greenville and move into my dorm at erskine...i have almost everything that i need, but there are so many things i have to deal with before and after i leave, and frankly--i'm scared...i never admit that to people, but i feel i can trust all of y'all enough to say so...i really just don't know what to do with my school situation (nerves/anxiety/whatever), to my relationship issues, to everything else.....if you can, please help:)

<3 y'all tons!

long time no see

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 22:37:22 GMT

man, i know i haven't updated in like forever, but well....sorry

i went to the lake for the 4th, as i'm sure many of you did...i got wasted, as i'm sure many of you did...i shot off fireworks, as i'm sure many of you did...i came back the next day hungover, as i'm sure many of you did

sorry so boring, but nothing exciting has been going on in my life! except that.....ok i'll wait to see if something happens with that before i tell y'all!

peace

some weird quiz-surveythingy i found somewhere

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 15:28:51 GMT

Fill out People's names

1 Melissa
2 Madison
3 Allison
4 me
5 Seth
6 Spencer
7 Clayton
8 Tripp
9 Blaine (matty B)
10 Andrew
11 Emily
12 Josh M
13 Elizabeth C
14 Samantha
15 Catherine
16 Whitney
17 Tate
18 Roger
19 Dustin
20 Sarah (my sister)

Then, fill this out according to the people you chose!!
----------------------------------------
---------------------------------
Who is 8 going out with: no one that I know of

Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple: they'd get along really well!

How about 18 and 4: AHHHH HAAHAHAH....how f-ing ironic was that! i so didn't realize i put those two together lol

What grade is 17 in: rising senior

When was the last time you talked to 12: either last night or saturday

What is 6's favorite band: who knows? aaaaaaaaayyyyyyyooooooooo (don't ask)

Does 1 have any siblings: yes, an older brother and a younger brother

Would you ever date 3: umm... no, i'm straight, thank you

Would you ever date 7: heck yeah

Is 15 single: si si

What's 16's last name: Taylor

What's 5's middle name: yikes i don't know!

What's 10's fantasy: who knows......he's in <3 with a girl named caroline (from spartanburg), so probably her

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple: hmm...possibly, he's cute, she's pretty

What school does 20 go to: the same college i'm going to, Erskine

Tell me a random fact about 11: i dunno...

have you ever had a crush on 16: sorry, no

Where does 9 live: the JC (in another state lol) *tear* :-P

What's 4's favorite color: pink pink pink!

Would you makeout with 14: um no, i'm straight

Does 8 like 19: they're both straight

How did you meet 15: when her family came to my church

Is 12 older than you: by a few months, yes

Have you ever given 13 a hug: yeah, she gave me a bday hug

Are 5 & 6 best friends: i don't think they know each other lol

Does 7 like 20: he'd be all over that if he knew he r

Is 17 the sexiest person alive: although we've had our differences, he's not too shabby

the world's shortest personality test

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 16:52:23 GMT

You are dreamy, peaceful, and young at heart.
Optimistic and caring, you tend to see the best in people.
You tend to be always smiling - and making others smile.

You are shy and intelligent... and a very hard worker.
You're also funny, but many people don't see your funny side.
Your subtle dry humor leaves your close friends in stitches.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

finally legal!

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 22:14:20 GMT

As of 3pm Saturday, guess who is FINALLY legal? lol yes, I have been waiting for my 18th birthday for I don't know HOW long! The party was good for the most part (if you want to know the one bad thing, IM me), I got another hole in each ear (nothing too major)...um...my friend is trying to set me up with somebody, whom I wouldn't mind being set up with :-D lol that's my little secret ;-)

anyways, two months from today is the big move-in day! i find out in like two and a half weeks who my roommate is, and parent orientation is August 6, so I'll meet them then, take my language placement test, check out the dorm room...i'm so excited about moving into Erskine, it'll be the experience of a lifetime (college, I mean)...i've already picked out what activities i want to do there and possibly what sorority i want to rush lol (by the advice of that lovely older sister of mine)...

mission trip: i leave july 24th. i will be the oldest one going, and i already feel out of place in youth group because i've already graduated, and it hit me the first sunday after first week like "whoa, what am i doing here", so i talked to my youth minister, and i'm basically going to step up and be like a leader, but not an official chaperone, like i can relate to the youth still, but also relate more to the adults going. that will be an interesting week.

friday: i'm going to anderson all day w/ the best friend, then we're going with her youth group to georgia to a drive-in movie (double feature--batman begins and war of the worlds), getting back to greenville at 3:30 am, so i'm just staying at her house. but i have been wanting to see both of those movies, so yay, i finally will lol

i saw the longest yard last night...it kicked butt:)

more crap stolen from madison

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 00:01:08 GMT

LASTS:
Last Cigarette: never
Last Alcoholic Drink: a month ago :-P Last Car Ride: like 5 mins ago
Last Kiss: a while
Last Good cry: um....graduation night, after the senior dinner
Last Library Book: Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
Last book bought: The Rescue, by Nicholas Sparks
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: Mr. and Mrs. Smith
Last Movie Rented: The Notebook
Last Cuss Word Uttered: d***, f***, or s***
Last Beverage Drank: um..sweet tea (a true southern girl, i know)
Last Food Consumed: cookie
Last Crush: hehe my best friend knows
Last Phone Call: melissa
Last TV Show Watched: oh it's um.... (inside)out: nicky hilton [on vh1 this morning]
Last Time Showered: this morning before babysitting
Last CD Played: "a walk to remember" soundtrack Last item bought: lunch at moe's
Last Download: who knows, man
Last Annoyance: the "3 amigos" from first week (haha melissa)
Last Disappointment: i don't remember
Last Soda Drank: like two years ago, i don't drink sodas
Last Thing Written: a song two nights ago
Last Words Spoken: bye y'all, see ya, love ya
Last Sleep: this morning
Last Ice Cream Eaten: fat free vanilla frozen yogurt
Last Chair Sat in: the computer chair
Last Webpage Visited: xanga

ONE MINUTE AGO: this survey
1 HOUR AGO: buying something for saturday
1 DAY AGO: watching tv
1 YEAR AGO: probably watching tv
I HURT: i'm not sure.....
I LOVE: everybody for the most part; my best friend would say one in particular :-P
I HATE: not having what i want, feet, smokers
I FEAR: the future, heights, spiders, drowning
IM EXCITED ABOUT: college, rushing a sorority
I FEEL: stressed
I HIDE: from what i'm not sure about
I DRIVE: herbie, the beat up piece of s**t car:)
I LEARNED: some stuff ;)
I NEED: to love and be loved
I THINK: um.....i don't know

First screen name: ladyraider625
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: debit card
First enemy: tate, but we're actually on pretty good terms
First concert: um...some christian artist...maybe jaci velasquez

SHORT ANSWER

I AM: jittery
I WANT: to be physically and spiritually and emotionally satisfied
I HAVE: friends, family, and faith
I WISH: for everything i want
I HATE: not having everything i want
I WONDER: if somebody knows how i feel, or if they feel how i do
I LOVE: my friends (again, ph would say one in particular :-D)
I ACHE: my back
I ALWAYS: sing, tell people i love them, and smile
I DANCE: like....you be the judge!
I SING: in the car and in the shower
I CRY: when someone dies...or when someone else cries
I AM NOT ALWAYS: smart, still, or happy
I WRITE: in a girl's handwriting...duh, i am a girl
I WIN: usually
I LOSE: occasionally
I CONFUSE: probably everyone at some point or another
I NEED: haha...a lot of things
I SHOULD: work out, lay out, and party:)

YES or NO
YOU KEEP A DIARY: no
YOU LIKE TO COOK: yes
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVEN'T SHARED WITH ANYONE: yes
HAVE A CRUSH: yes
WANT TO GET MARRIED: not at the moment, but in the future GET MOTION SICKNESS: no
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: of sorts
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: except when i go overboard in my "teenage daughter" mode, especially since i'm going off to college
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: yes
LIKE YOUR CURRENT HAIR COLOR: kinda sorta

FAVORITES
NUMBER: 16 COLOR: pink (gotta love the girly girls)
DAYS: saturdays
MONTH: june or july
SONG(S): anything by kelly clarkson or edwin mccain (that's my thing right now lol)
SEASON: summer
DRINK: sweet tea [quintessential southern thing--house wine of the south]CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: chocolate milk
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: dark
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: chocolate

IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? yes BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
SAID 'i love you'?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: yes
TALKED TO AN EX?: yes
MISSED AN EX?: no
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: no
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?:yes
HUGGED SOMEONE?:yes

one more week, my dears.......

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 18:39:04 GMT

god, i feel so YOUNG compared to everyone....i'm JUST ABOUT to turn EIGHTEEN....while everyone else pretty much is already! ugh.....well, as long as everything next saturday kicks butt, i'm safe:)

i know, i know

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 22:51:48 GMT

sorry i'm an updating slacker, but oh well, i'm doing it now.

one, my birthday is in nine days and i'll finally be legal.

two, first week kicked ass--read my xanga for the inside jokes and try to figure them out.

three, i have a personal slave for a week at erskine lol as a result of winning a bet.

four, i may be going to ireland next summer with a friend...man would that rock!

and five, if you can think of anything else for me to put tell me!

oh yeah, six--um.......lol.......i <3 ____ ______! (only my best friend knows him):)

random......oh well

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 01:38:08 GMT

*~*Random Firsts*~*

A-aspiration: veterinarian
B-best friend: Madison
C-crush: Pierre, in the sixth grade
D-disappointment: in a couple of guys (who shall remain nameless), when they almost took something i truly loved away from me~my youth group [they drove me to almost quitting]
E-embarrassing moment: falling down half a flight of stairs in front of a bunch of upperclassmen (10th grade)
F-foreign trip: England/France/Italy/Vatican City summer before 8th grade
G-game (athletic): basketball in the third grade for ARBC
H-heartbreak (of any sort): see "crush" lol
I-instrument (if applicable): piano
J-job (babysitting doesn't count): working at the daycare at my church
K-kiss (age): 12
L-love: Jamison
M-memory: two year old kindergarten at ARBC
N-name: Ann
O-operation: having my wisdom teeth out
P-public performance: children's choir at church (in elementary school); non-church wise, spring sing in 8th grade
Q-quarrel: all the childhood crap with my sister
R-role model: my sister, Sarah
S-sickness (like the ACTUAL name of an illness): chicken pox, in kindergarten and in first grade
T-time you were unconscious: i fainted after getting my wisdom teeth out, if that counts
U-ultimatum: i don't know, man, i just needed to find a good "u" word
V-vacation: Tennessee
W-wreck: summer before senior year, i bumped someone's car; before i started driving, someone rear-ended my grandparents' car when I was in the backseat (maybe some point in elementary school i think)
X-xray: n/a, since the dentist doesn't count
Y-Yuletide mishap: forgetting to mark what presents went to whom before they were all wrapped
Z-zoo escapade: maybe like first grade?

ha i stole your survey stefan!

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 01:08:07 GMT

1. What's your name, and what is my name? Garrett; Stefan

2. What is our status? friends

3. When did you meet me? elementary school

4. Can you remember the exact date/time or reckon it by other temporal landmarks? just that it was Augusta Circle

5. How did you get to know me? over the years...just random stuff in general

6. Do you have or have you had a crush on me? no

7. Do you love or have you loved me? you're an awesome friend

8. Will we stay whatever status we are forever? hopefully

9. If I proposed to you, how would you feel? i have no clue

10. Is there any song in particular that reminds you of me? let me get back to you

11. What three things most strongly make you think about/remind you of me? ^^see above answer^^

12. Do you dream or have you ever dreamed about me? no

13. If so, how? n/a

14. If I asked you to dance with me, would you? ionno man

(What do you think of...?)

15. My choice of clothes? pretty nice

16. My hair and the styles I wear? its you--only you

17. Choice of music? i dont know what all you listen to

18. Choice of films and directors? eclectic, but cool

19. Do you think I'm a good person? yes

20. Describe me in 3 words: smart, friendly, awesome

21. If you could, would you let me live with you? no (i live alone:-D)

22. Do you like the way I treat people? yes

23. As honestly as you can, describe what you think of me as a person: you're a funny and smart person, whom I have enjoyed getting to know over the years. I know you can do whatever you put your mind to.

24. Will you steal this and see if I'll answer it? haha what do YOU think

as we go on, we remember all the times we had together....

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 02:42:09 GMT

well, tomorrow's the big day! i'm so many emotions all rolled into one ball-- nervous ......... sad ......... scared ......... excited ........ happy ........ i just can't believe it's MY time to take the long-awaited walk. for some reason, it feels more like my SISTER'S time, and she graduated from greenville high THREE years ago. haha anyways, today at rehearsal, it finally hit me. i got this realization bashed into my head that "wow, it's not a dream.....this is really happening!!"

although the majority of the people i'm about to mention won't see this, oh well. i just want to say a humongous thank you to my dad, my sister, everyone i've worked with in some form (whether it be my job at the daycare or babysitting for someone's children), and all my friends--thank you for being behind me, and helping me to know that i do have someone looking out for me, someone to support me. i love you all--the past four years, especially, have meant the world to me!! thanks again, and...........I DID IT!!!!

p.s.........

i'll always miss you mom, my guardian angel. this one's for you! i love you!

stef, I owe ya!!

Tue, 31 May 2005 03:14:08 GMT

here ya go!! one of the best senior quotes!!

*~*The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you.*~*

--Quentin Tarantino, "Pulp Fiction"

quotes for my fellow grads

Sun, 29 May 2005 21:28:25 GMT

*~*don't cry because it came to an end...smile because it happened (stolen from one of courtney's entries)*~*

*~*as we go on, we remember all the times we had together; and as our lives change from whatever, we will still be friends forever*~*

*~*Here's to the nights we felt alive, here's to the tears you knew you'd cry-here's to goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come too soon*~*

*~*Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on to. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young*~*

*~*if you were walking and heard the cold night coming--would you call my name 'cause you know i'd come running*~*

*~*But I've loved these days, so before we end and then begin, we'll drink a toast to how it's been a few more hours to complete, a few more times that I can say, I've loved these days*~*

*~*Be young, be foolish, be HAPPY*~*

*~*Tragedies happen in life, do you give up or quit? No, I realized that when your heart breaks you fight to realize that you're still alive. because you are and that pain you feel, that's life. the confusion and fear reminds you that something out there is going to be better and that something out there is worth fighting for*~*

*~*Life is too short to be anything but happy so love deeply, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything, and leave with no regrets, forget the past, with the exception of what you've learned from it and remember...all of it has happened for a reason*~*

*~*Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined*~*

*~*May your hands always be busy, may your feet always be swift. May you have a strong foundation when the winds of changes shift. May your heart always be joyful, may your song always be sung-may you stay forever young, forever young, forever young*~*

*~*No reserves, no regrets, no retreats*~*

*~*Work like you don't need the money. Dance like no one is watching. Love like you have never been hurt*~*

*~*These are the days worth livin'. These are the years worth givin'. These are the moments, these are the times-let's make the best out of our lives*~*

*~*The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams*~*

*~*What we do belongs to what we are, and what we are is what becomes of us*~*

*~*Don't be dismayed by goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you meet again...and meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends*~*

*~*We may not have it together, but together-we have it ALL*~*

*~*I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance. Never settle for the path of least resistance. Livin' life means taking chances, but they're worth takin'. Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'. Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter. When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider*~*

*~*Carpe diem*~*

congratulations to my fellow Raiders!! good luck wherever you may go!! as for my OTHER friends who are graduating this year (or already have, lucky you)--good luck, as well!! i will miss every single one of you, believe it or not:-)

life as i know it..............will never be the same

Wed, 25 May 2005 02:06:52 GMT

I know what I want to do with my life
but
I'm afraid to make that leap
to the next chapter

I know what process I want to take
but
I'm afraid I won't succeed

~* Lose track of your mind and leave me behind. Dont look back, take a picture of us and remember what we were. Fare thee well- the way out is before you, so to yourself be true. Say goodbye to old friends, make amends at the end of this road. I've been told that each day is my first and before you cry, sing this lullabye... Goodbye to you, I will love you forever... through every endeavor. I'll go where secrets are sold, where roses unfold. I'll sleep as time goes by... Don't hurt your soul, because it makes you whole. Don't hurt your soul, it's all in your control... *~ [Katy Rose]

A week from tomorrow, I will have to take that leap.....and frankly, my dear--I'm terrified. All the "what ifs" of college are overwhelming me, and I don't know if I can handle it all! I want to believe that I'm able to, but it's extremely complicated and difficult for me.....I feel as if I've done everything in my power to prepare for it, yet I'm forgetting something. My faith is the one thing I'm 100% positive has kept me going as I have for the past twelve years of my life, and I'm even more positive that it will be the one thing that will keep me going for the rest of my life. I just need to take the leap into the next portion of my life, and I need to find the courage and the voice within.

Song of the Moment:

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

surveys, surveys, surveys....

Sat, 14 May 2005 01:44:39 GMT

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety!
Created by -ambiguous and taken 51996 times on bzoink!
What is your favorite..
gum	Icebreakers
restaurant	Soby's
drink	Sweet tea
season	Summer
type of weather	Sunshine:)
emotion	Loved
thing to do on a half day	Sleep
late-night activity	Party
sport	Basketball
city	Paris, France
store	Charlotte Russe
When was the last time you..
cried	Last week
played a sport	Wednesday (May 11)
laughed	Today (May 13)
hugged someone	Wednesday
kissed someone	~for me to know...~
felt depressed	Two weeks ago
felt elated	Today (realizing how soon graduation is)
felt overworked	Not too recently...
faked sick	February
lied	Thursday (May 12)
What was the last..
word you said	Whatever
thing you ate	Chicken Fingers
song you listened to	"Incomplete"
thing you drank	Water
place you went to	the hospital (to visit the gpa)
movie you saw	Napoleon Dynamite (dvd); Beauty Shop (theater)
movie you rented	The Notebook
concert you attended	Switchfoot; Steven Curtis Chapman/Casting Crowns/Chris Tomlin
Who was the last person you..
hugged	Whitney
cried over	Bob (m***********)
kissed	~for me to know...~
danced with	Edward
shared a secret with	Melissa
had a sleepover with	Allie C
called	Stephen E (about graduation-related stuff)
went to a movie with	Allie C, I think
saw	My sister, Sarah
were angry with	Bob (a******)
couldn't take your eyes off of	~Now that's DEFINITELY not out yet...:-D~
obsessed over	CLW, DWC, or AB....~Initials used to protect the innocent~
Have you ever..
danced in the rain	Yes
kissed someone	Yes
done drugs	No
drank alcohol	Yes
slept around	No
partied 'til the sun came up	Yes
had a movie marathon	Yes
gone too far on a dare	No
spun until you were immensely dizzy	Yes
taken a survey quite like this before	Maybe?
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good luck and congrats

Wed, 11 May 2005 13:04:33 GMT

congratulations:

1. the baseball team for making it to the state game (go raiders!!)
2. my fellow seniors (for surviving four years at greenville, not to mention our SENIOR year at PARKER, of all places)
3. anybody who has won some sort of an award

good luck:

1. again, the baseball team--take it ALL tonight! (or i won't hear the end of it from my next door neighbor lol)
2. again, the seniors--wherever y'all may be going, remember the times you spent together

exams next week........honors econ........marine biology honors.......english 4 honors.......then raiderama/yearbooks, then i'm OUT

putting your thoughts on paper really helps

Sat, 07 May 2005 23:50:21 GMT

I thought I had
control of my heart,
but I never knew--
that from the start--
how chaotic **** is,
how crazy my mind gets
every time I try to get you out of it

I want you out of here;
out and away.
Don't want you here anymore,
can't think of what to say,
except that you don't belong
with me anymore.
I want you out of here.
Don't ever again
walk through my door.

How could I let you
do this to me?
I'm supposed to be the strong one
who can't sit by and see
you destroy a life,
now you pay the price.
Just go on, and let me be.

I want you out of here;
out and away.
Don't want you here anymore,
can't think of what to say,
except that you don't belong
with me anymore.
I want you out of here.
Don't ever again
walk through my door.

I want you out of here;
out and away.
Don't want you here anymore,
can't think of what to say,
except that you don't belong
with me anymore.
I want you out of here.
Don't ever again
walk through my door.

*~*Before writing that, I had no clue what to think. I was so scrambled--I was angry, sad, upset, disappointed....a complete mess! After writing that, I realized that I shouldn't let someone get to me like that, and should be ready to move on, and you know what? I think I really am this time*~*